My Anxiety's Getting the Better of Me
Today is a rather tiring day. I recently attended the Salubong of STM for our Baristas and honestly, I’m quite demotivated. I was thinking whether I had it in me to even reach that point. I’m questioning everything now, have I learned, will these learning be enough, will I make everyone proud? The pressure is really too much that thinking about it makes me sick. Or will I just be another story for STM, the one that almost pass? Why was I thinking this way? I traced it back to a conversation I had with a classmate. We were waiting for the baristas to come out of the examination school and what struck me was this question: How will you feel knowing you did bad in the past examinations and there are people cheering for you as if you are the next to claim that dot? For sure you'll feel awful. And I said, well that happened in the last year's Salubong and this barista really shed a ton of tears. Then a few months after, we learned he failed. So It gave me something to think about. T...
