Whatever Will Be, Will Be.

Hello. I’m back just a few days after I’ve made some update here about my life. I guess I’m just so stressed I don’t have any outlet to make this go away.  

I’m here doing something productive but I can’t seem to focus on anything. My work keeps piling up and I don’t know what to do. Or, I purposely making myself unproductive doing manual/labor work like walking and delivering items when I could ask someone to do it for me. I just don’t want to think. Just for today. 
 
Anyway, last Friday, a direct report said she will be resigning. To my surprise, I didn’t ask her to stay like I usually do. As days go by, I have come to a realization and a new resolved too. I won’t be asking people to stay just because I feel like they could give much more than what they thought they could, that they could go beyond what they had in mind, or that this is what they feel is “just a phase.” I believe those who wanted to stay will stay. Be it at work, as being your friend, or just even in life in general. I should let people grow. I should let them achieve their dreams, their aspirations, their needs. 
 
I sometimes believe we are drawn to bad choices, and then we have someone who would call us out, let us think things through, I thought that was my role that I am now able to somehow call some shots. But with all that’s happening, I guess we just have to let go of things. Maybe they just wanted peace of mind and maybe, it was me who’s hindering them. 
 
As much as I wanted to grow the team and have the easy way out, I believe all of us are capable of deciding for ourselves. I have so much plan yet I am now in a challenging spot because of this new development. I want to stay positive. Tired, but still happy. This is just a redirection. Que sera, sera.