Life Update 2025

I’m feeling down just a few hours ago. I don’t know what to do with my emotions. I cannot tesll anyone because people would tell on me. Also, if you don’t really care that much to a person, you would say that it’s annoying hearing other people’s anxieties. So here I am, back again in my little space. Like I always do. 

 

A lot has happened to me for the past year and more and I don’t know where to start. Let’s make a digest then, or some sort of timeline…

 

On June 2023, I enrolled in law school. I was so excited that I studied in advance. Imagine, a first year law student studying Statutory Construction, a month before the actual commencement of class when I should have been reading the RPC or the Rules of Court but noooo. It was a good read though and I’ve enjoyed it.

 

By the end of January 2024, I’ve shed a lot of tears that people would comment on me how much I’ve lost weight. And sometimes too, they would say how puffy my eyes are. Two things: 1) I am sleep deprived and/or 2) I cried the night before. That has been my regular activity that I even attended class crying. Law’s school has been nice and sometimes, not so nice to me. But at this time, I was happy because I passed all my subs. Not with flying colors, a letdown to what I was trying to achieve but I was able to manage. I’ve expanded my friends and I was happy with them because they were the most genuine, caring, and fair friends I want. Or so I thought (Dramaaaa!)

 

By June 2024, I ended up crying more. From what I remember, it was a month of crying and not really telling anyone about it because I only have myself. Everybody’s busy with their lives, everybody’s struggling, everyone’s trying to live their lives…But why did I cry…Hmm.. a lot of things, moments I regretted because I’m too busy studying, time I cannot get back because, yes, still busy studying. And to top it all off, my “hard work,” too shallow for some, did not really pay off. I failed in 3 subjects. Out of the three, there is that one subject I thought I would pass, because I would focus on it for several days, leaving my other subjects behind for days too. And yet, I failed. That one subject would redirect me with my plans because it is a prerequisite to a lot of my succeeding subjects. THAT HURTS. A LOT.

 

End of December 2025 and as of today, we were not able to get our grades for 2 subjects. I was able to enroll a decent number of units this sem. I took 2 subjects that are available to 3^rd year students only. It was okay, I guess. I also took the non-cred subject in remedial and still failed. The good thing that came with it is that, I now have an idea which subjects I should focus in the Bar. My grades are okay in general. I could have done better, I know. This sem too, a lot of my friends transferred to different schools. We had fights, I did not even understand what happened but the schedule was so bad (LIKE REALLY REALLY BAD) that everybody’s struggling. People are just looking out for themselves and I’ve seen how people can use people just to get what they want with no regard whatsoever to people that once helped them or did them favors. I guess you could argue with, “Well I didn’t ask you to help me, did I?” True. But I just thought words spoken are given a bit of weight because, you promised, impliedly, to be true and to abide by your agreement. I learned things the hard way. So much realization.

 

Today’s January 14, 2025. This is also the birthday of my friend Kaikai who I haven’t spoken to for quite a long time already. I guess people are like boats. Eventually, your mooring line gets broken or damaged by the sea salt. Also, the stevedores are not helpful. What am I writing? Point is, I’m starting again. I re-enrolled the 2 out of 3 subs I failed so hopefully I will be able to make it. 

 

Today is just a tiring day in general. But also, I’m so sleepy. And exhausted. And frustrated because you learn more and more about the corrupt practices of the people that you work with on a daily basis. Our constant thought is to champion as much as we can to let the people win, those who deserve to have the best things in life because the government are in a chaos now. Yet, there will be people who are greedy, and just so much thickness in their face I can’t even see past their cakey foundations. Oh Goooood. Im tired with trying to be a good employee because people around are not doing their part to give out the best service to the employees. Ah, why am I even typing these riddles.

 

On a lighter topic, the notes in my “Great Wall of Misery and Hope” are piling up. I think I would be able to put up something by the end of my 4^th year in law school. So much babble. If you find grammatically incorrect sentences construction here, move along. This post isn't for it. Fin.