Thoughts from Yesterday

Before law school, I get to enjoy life – small walks, fleeting talks, petty fights. When people knew that I enrolled, everybody was excited saying things like it’s gonna be fun, it’s going to be fulfilling, essentially them being supportive of me. Even those who were already in the circle gets excited for me too. I get it. This is something new. But as I experienced it further down, I feel like I have become uncaring over everything. The friends who were supportive of me have now become distant memories. Was it me? Was it the difficulty of learning it? Or was it just me protecting my peace? This has been bothering me for the entirety of this week. The friends I have severed, the opportunities I have forgone... 

I suppose I got tired. I got tired of everyone and of everything. I’m only halfway through the semester and I am extremely jaded. The other day, a friend asked me what year I’m on. I said I’m on my 2^nd year. Then she asked further: “So you will be on your 3^rd year next semester?” and I replied yes but since I am an irregular student, I needed to take 2^nd year subs still. And she said: Dalia ra sa panahon no? (Time flies, doesn’t it?) and this got me thinking: Am I really going to be on my 3^rd year next semester? And boy I got excited. I have this in me where my 2^nd sem is not really my best self. I wanted this to end as early as possible. When the new school year starts, I’m all into it, like a new kid who got left with a new toy – that sort of feeling.

As I write this, I am waiting to get the car washed. Nothing much exciting in my life tbh. Just some random stuff and a bit of funny stuff here and there. I have done a bit of reading and i'll head somewhere to read afterwards. A quick introspection is what this blog is all about. I’ll have an exam this Sunday so best of luck to me, yeah?