Before the Worst

I’m currently obsessed with one of The Script’s song’s Before the Worst (not that I’m not slightly obsessed with them). The song is about patching things up. It’s something that I really wanted to do since the separation. I know we didn’t end up in a good way and never really had that chance of talking things out. Maybe he chickened out since every time we “talk things out,” we would always end up together again. :)) I know he’s tired and just wanted to move one but I’m not comfortable with that kind of set up.

The last text I sent him if I’m not mistaken was about asking him if he has a free time because I’m going to return his dvds full of game installers. And he didn’t even bother to text me back just to say no or for me to go to hell or whatever. It’s like not even grunting when ask if you want to eat or not. Maybe he’s phone got stolen or my number got deleted accidentally or maybe he just don’t want to talk to me. But I’m cool about it. I don’t want to bother him anymore if he’s that bitter anyway. HAHAHA! Kidding! :D

All I’m saying is I’m ready to move on and I can’t fully do that if he’s avoiding me. Not that I can’t if he won’t text me or what. Like everybody else in the world, I want CLOSURE (What’s with girls and closure?!). I could guarantee him that I won’t text him if he wants me to: I solemnly swear that I won’t text, call, email, IM, say hi if ever I’ll see you, everything. Seriously speaking, I can really relate to the lyrics as it goes like this: Before the worst, before we mend, before our hearts decide it’s time to love again.

People really are complicated. And we were never contented. I just wanted things to be OK. I wanted to feel happy but I can’t do that if I feel that someone out there hates me. I want to save our friendship—baa! Everybody needs time, maybe that’s what he wants. At least I tried.

Below is the MV of Before the Worst. I love the rhythm and I can relate so.. Here you go. :)