Final Examinations Let's Do This!

The songs are on the loop today. Such a lazy day to study. Dory’s health is declining and I don’t know how to help her. Hanna’s struggling with the way she answers though she passed the exam. I feel so isolated. Rightly so because that was what should have happened in our PBB. 

Can’t put words into how I’m feeling but yesterday, Doc M asked me to meet him at his office…at least that’s the info that was relayed to me. Heart thumping with heavy steps, I went to his office. I was shaking in my boots. It turned out that it was the other PG who wanted to meet me because of the supposed document that should have been forwarded to them at that hour. Finally, I gathered all my strength to tell him I am very sorry (again) for how the things turned out. I almost cried because he said something about forgiving since, well, it is the season of Christmas. 

But Christmas is just a normal day for me this year because well, one professor wanted us to take our finals on that day while the other wanted to release our grades on that day too. Yes, things are making me crazy thinking all about the pressure that this school has put me through.

 

I love you Kring, for always cheering me up whenever I am down. She said, “Basta Jen, usa ra jud na ka exam. It does not define you.” Thank you, Dory and Hanna, for making me feel good always. I know you have your struggles too but you took your time to cheer me up. Thank you, papa, for always hugging me so tight every night. 

 

Today, I finally had the courage to stand up and read. I am looking forward on our exam on Monday (lies), but first, GAD. I will be absent on 2 succeeding Monday because, well...exams and the GAD team has a series of activities every Monday. Whenever you see me smiling, it’s all just a façade. However, know that I’m still struggling, still learning, and still hoping that one day, this too shall pass. My exam scores will remain the same if I don’t do anything to improve it. So let’s do this! 💪🏻